i NEVER like my primary school life. looking through those autograph books written by those primary school friend, made me feels that they are just "acting" nice and friendly. We are all so childish. Tricky and bytchy. Some of them try to act nice in order to get a position in clique. den backstab uu overnight. without knowing anything, everyone ignores you.

HOPELESS and HELPLESS. no one was there for you. alone. and cried. no one believes in you. anger, saddness, all was left in you. you thought after you graduate from that stupid school, uu can have a new life. but you are wrong. history repeats itself for 2 years. being backstab, accused, blames, lied. all you left was HOLE in ur heart. Crying doesnt help anymore. it's getting worst and worst. hate the world, hate everyone, hate ur life.

Seriously what can you do? pray and hope to get a better life next time. God heard what you wants and gives youu. but ur lovelife sucks. being neglected, lied, two-timed by ur beloved. uu are so sad of ur life that uu almost killed urself umpteen times. what you think of was ending ur life. leaving this world. dying. you pray to god again.

Because of all those things happened, ii learnt to be strong, learnt to protect myself, learnt to love myself, learnt not to get bullied anymore. My life is filled with laughters, cheerful and optimistic self. Once i'm happy and optimistic, nothing can take me to the dark side. =) having 3 friends who i can lean on, is more than enough. i can share my emotions with them. but god doesnt alway gives you what you want.

you will gain something and lose something. I gain friendship, but no relationship. i wonder nextime if i got relationship, will ii lose my friendship? if like dat, i rather not have love life, and always have my friends with me.

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